Hello Divas! I am back from the 2011 Zumba Instructor Convention. I had a wonderful time. I was able to spend five days doing what I love the best, DANCING!!! Not to mention we had private concerts from both Pitbull and Wyclef Jean! I had a ball and I was able to keep my Mommy Guilt at bay! (Whoot Whoot!)
It is very interesting, the more time I spent dancing my days away and learning from other instructors who get to travel and dance for a living, the more insignificant I felt. My class thinks the world of me but in a sea of 6,000 other instructors, I felt…..ordinary.
So ordinary that I began to daydream about what it would be like if I was able to dance for a living, train other instructors, perform on the big stage, have people recognize me and ask to take pictures with ME!
Daydreaming turned into thinking of ways to make myself stand out for next year. I came home excited about all of my big plans to be the next BIG thing at convention next year.
As soon as I arrived home, hubby and I went to pick up my girls from dance camp. He went in to get them and I stayed in the car to surprise them. When they walked out of the building and saw me standing by the car with a big bag, they ran towards me with open arms! My youngest daughter was so excited to see me, she started crying! ( I know, it was so sweet!)
They were so full of questions about what I did. I bought each of them back a “Zumba outfit” so they can wear them to class with me when I teach. I know they shrilled with delight for over fifteen minutes about those clothes.
I was so tired that I didn’t think about my new aspirations anymore that night. However, when it was time to go to work on Tuesday, I felt ordinary AGAIN. Not only that, the environment at work has been really negative lately so guess who didn’t want to go to work?
So, all day at work, I lamented about not working in my passion. When I wasn’t lamenting, I was daydreaming about dancing for a living and being a “Star” for next year at convention. I was in need of a serious attitude adjustment!
At dinner last night, my youngest daughter announced that my oldest daughter was taking lessons from a girl at dance camp on being popular. I immediately responded, “it is not important that everybody know you and like you, it is more important how you treat people. Plus, people are wishy-washy. They like you today and can’t stand you tomorrow.”
I was talking to her but God was speaking to ME.
1Samuel 16:7
…The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.
I went to bed without lamenting or daydreaming.
1 Peter 5:6 (The Message)
So be content with who you are, and don’t put on airs. God’s strong hand is on you; he’ll promote you at the right time.
I feel that way all the time. I think we all want to be recognized for being extraordinary in something. Although, I have to say…just by reading your girls' response to you being home I can tell you are extraordinary at being something….
Being Mom.
I LOVE IT KATINA! You are OUR Big Star in
K-vegas!!!!! Missed you! Can't wait to start new session tonight. You are so on track with life….you are not going so fast that you didn't see that GOD was communicating to you through your precious daughter. We all need to slow down our lives and take it all in more slowly and we will recognize GOD'S present even more. LOVE YOU!!!!! ♥♥♥
Funny how it works like that sometimes!
Btw, your convention sounds amazing! I actually wrote about Zumba yesterday. My instructor was gone this past weekend to a convention! Wonder if it was the same one!
Isn't it funny how often we are telling our kids something, and we realize we're really talking to ourselves! This was a cute post! You Diva!
I think we all want to be popular at one time or another. That's human nature. I'm glad you came to an understanding with yourself, though, and are content. Being ourselves will ultimately make us feel what we are looking for when longing to be popular. I know that when I am living my passions I feel like I am on top of the world. Isn't it funny how our children reveal so much about ourselves?