Be Still...

The New Year happened. In some ways, I feel like the sprinter on the starting line that did not hear the gun to start the race. I have so many ideas spinning around in my head that sometimes thinking for a long time leaves me tired and I haven't even done anything (in reality).

No resolutions yet, just lots of thoughts: What am I doing with this blog? How should I grow my fitness company? How do I stop the heartache of not being passionate about my "real job". How do I keep up with the fast pace of our family life AND do all the other things that I am doing? How do I become a better wife, mother, and friend?

Let the monkey brain begin , huh?

So, unlike so many times in the past, I am NOT getting busy on trying to answer any of the questions in my head. I am not going to just jump into something for the sake of being busy to distract myself. This time I am going to be still and wait on God to direct me.

Divas, this is hard and really doesn't feel all that great. However, one thing my 38years have taught me is that I tend to go through things more than once. I guess my head is hard. I have been in this place before. In fact, I wrote a poem in May of last year, called Starting Over.

Here is an excerpt that reminded me of what to do:

"With nothing left, I let the Lord take the driver's seat.

Being a passenger meant I didn't get to decide...my destination OR who came along for the ride.

I couldn't break the speed limit to get to the next "bling",riding with the Lord meant sometimes doing nothing.

Nothing was really...Resting.Reflecting.Praying.Healing.Accepting.

After a while, I stopped looking out the window to see where we were going.

Then, I arrived at a new destination with out even knowing.."

I haven't arrived at my new destination yet (I don't think). So, I guess I am in the period of Resting, Reflecting, Praying, Healing and Accepting.

Psalm 46:10 (ASV)
"Cease striving and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

I may be MIA for the next few weeks as I practice being STILL.

This post is part of a weekly meme hosted by Shell at Things I Can't Say called Pour Your Heart Out!